Self Reflection: 1

Deeply insecure,

But at least I have the confidence to pretend,

Deeply motivated,

But that’s only because I’m too afraid to fail,

Unafraid to fail,

Because apparently that’s how you’re supposed to “win”?

But what is “winning” if you’re deeply wounded?

Not a clue, but there is still time to heal,

Want to be happy —

Then why wake up every day with fire?

Fire creates desire,

The desire to change,

But what does fire change?

And endless cycle,

Of both love and hate,

And endless cycle of both union and disunion,

I guess our “Utopia” might not ever happen,

But should we stop trying to pursue?

Try as you might —

Even if it still means you have growing pains,

For growing pains are good,

But that doesn’t mean they don’t hurt,

Hurt if you must,

But please,

For the love of God,

Come up for your last breath…